One of the hardest things for me to do is to let things go. And, as we are now a week into the new year, I already feel that this is a theme of 2014 for me. I must let go of things I've been holding on to if they aren't things the Lord is directing me to pursue.
*Big exhale*
One blessing for which I am thankful, is that I tend to put motherhood and housewifedom on the front burner automatically. So all my dearly held ambitions and passions are ALWAYS secondary to those things. This is why I have hardly accomplished a thing in the last several weeks. Evie is getting diapered, fed, bathed, played with, read to, tickled, sang to, etc. The house has been getting cleaned, organized, decorated; dinners have been planned, prepared, and cleared again to start over in just a few short hours. The good thing is, I am crazy about this life. I mean, I love-love-love having a baby to take care of. And I love-love-love having my husband to care for, to confide in, etc. But these things take room in my heart, my time, my life. And that means that so many other things must be cleared out.
The Lord and I just had a beautifully long conversation about the things I've been holding onto- things that I KNOW I cannot accomplish while dutifully taking care of the tasks the Lord has clearly given to me. As much as it pains me to admit that I'm not completing something I set out to do, I have decided to set aside my Kingdom Come note-taking. I may still finish reading the book and writing a review...I'm not sure yet. I certainly do enjoy both reading it and taking notes on it; it is just too much for me to take on right now.
So! No more planning to converse intelligently with my dispensationalist friends for the moment. If your are seriously interested in the topic, either borrow the book from me, read it for yourself, or wait for Sam to come out with a shorter version of the tome, which I believe is in the works currently.
Bear with me while I, a) finish reading Kingdom Come and prepare a review/analysis or b) read something lighter and prepare a review for it.
Is there something the Lord has led you to let go of recently? Are there some things he has put on your heart to pursue instead?
*Big exhale*
One blessing for which I am thankful, is that I tend to put motherhood and housewifedom on the front burner automatically. So all my dearly held ambitions and passions are ALWAYS secondary to those things. This is why I have hardly accomplished a thing in the last several weeks. Evie is getting diapered, fed, bathed, played with, read to, tickled, sang to, etc. The house has been getting cleaned, organized, decorated; dinners have been planned, prepared, and cleared again to start over in just a few short hours. The good thing is, I am crazy about this life. I mean, I love-love-love having a baby to take care of. And I love-love-love having my husband to care for, to confide in, etc. But these things take room in my heart, my time, my life. And that means that so many other things must be cleared out.
The Lord and I just had a beautifully long conversation about the things I've been holding onto- things that I KNOW I cannot accomplish while dutifully taking care of the tasks the Lord has clearly given to me. As much as it pains me to admit that I'm not completing something I set out to do, I have decided to set aside my Kingdom Come note-taking. I may still finish reading the book and writing a review...I'm not sure yet. I certainly do enjoy both reading it and taking notes on it; it is just too much for me to take on right now.
So! No more planning to converse intelligently with my dispensationalist friends for the moment. If your are seriously interested in the topic, either borrow the book from me, read it for yourself, or wait for Sam to come out with a shorter version of the tome, which I believe is in the works currently.
Bear with me while I, a) finish reading Kingdom Come and prepare a review/analysis or b) read something lighter and prepare a review for it.
Is there something the Lord has led you to let go of recently? Are there some things he has put on your heart to pursue instead?
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